Naturally Kish

June 28, 2012

A Re-occuring Theme

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*the following were posted by two different friends of mine*

(FIRST ONE)
(Deep Sigh)….It’s so refreshing to embrace who you are totally and not change it for the sake of other people. You can only be you, any other way is not authentic and you will find yourself weighted with trying to be who you are not. Be Who Christ created you to be, it’s easier 🙂

(SECOND ONE)
Embrace who you are. Love the person you are, the good, the bad, the ugly. Accept your flaws as much as your attributes and always strive to better yourself. When you accept yourself for who you are, all of you, then those who come into your space will have no choice but to do the same. Correction, they will have a choice, accept or flee.

My .02 – This takes me back to my struggle with self-hatred and how important it is to Know Thyself. I’ve been guilty of letting others dictate who I should be. But no more!!! Im a complex human being and hell, I havent even completely found myself so others opinion of who I am presently or who I should be in the future is irrelevent.
While I appreciate those that care about me trying to steer me in the right direction, it is imperative that life be lived, lessons be learned through what’s called trial and error.
All I can ask is that people respect MY process. What works for one, will not necessarily work for another. Or maybe it will work, but one has to go thru it in order to learn that fact.

Just my thoughts……. Happy reading!!!!

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June 25, 2012

The Meeting

Filed under: Uncategorized — naturallykish @ 4:43 pm

If you’ve been keeping up then you know by now that I have a sister.

IKR. I’m still in awe too!!! Lol

Anywho, we finally met face to face on Saturday night. What a meeting it was!!!!!!!

We laughed, shared stories and had a knee slapping good time.

Now before we met, I looked at all her pics trying to see if we looked alike. Typical I guess. Lol. Well when we got in that restaurant and sat down and I looked across that table…..it was like looking in the mirror. We honestly do resemble. A lot. Its freaky, in a good way.

So, now what?? How can you make up for 25 years of lost time????? The answer is pretty simple….You can’t. All we can do is live in the present and build our future together.

I’m excited, angry, hurt, happy, giddy, nervous, sad, jealous, elated, proud. And so much more.

Let me explain – Excited for the new beginning. Angry because she had such a hard time growing up with her other siblings. Hurt b/c I feel I was deprived of a part of me. Happy (self explanatory). Giddy b/c I’m a big sister!! Even within my circle of close sistas/friends I’m the youngest. Lol Nervous b/c newness brings nervousness. Sad (see hurt and angry). Elated (see excited). Proud b/c my sissy is an awesome young woman.

She’s a writer. She works for herself. Has two babies that she adores and is just a sweetheart.

I look forward to what the future holds and I’m thankful to Allah (God) for this union.

June 23, 2012

I have a Sister!!!!!!

Filed under: Uncategorized — naturallykish @ 1:19 pm

I recently found out or should I say, been re-introduced to the fact that I have a younger sister!!!!! She’s been searching for me for the past 12 years and found me this week!! How cool is that?!!?!?!?!?! Facebook and Smaltimore MD has its benefits!!!!!!

See, I lost my father 14 years ago and before that, we didn’t have the best relationship. He did tell me when I was about 10 or so that I had a sister but I had never met her. So I didn’t believe him and never got the chance to ask him about it.

Fast forward……

She sends my son a message via Facebook and as they say, ‘the rest is history’.

We finally talked and let me just say she is such a smart, young woman. Very articulate, mature and so sweet. I can’t wait to see her face to face.

June 22, 2012

A New Beginning….Again

Filed under: Uncategorized — naturallykish @ 1:14 pm

If you’ve been keeping up with my fly by night blogging then you are familiar with my weight struggle. If you haven’t been keeping up, its not too late to catch up.

Anyhow, I was on a roll. Exercising daily, eating right, no pepsi’s, the whole 9 yards. And then I got sick. Because I have asthma, when I get a cold I’m pretty much on the bench. Not useful at all. Needless to say, everything stopped. I was down and out for three weeks.

Ok, let’s fast forward. Feeling better. Time to get back to my routine at the Lake. Did it once, almost died. Nevermind. Gotta find something else to do. Funny thing is, I didn’t really look for other options, I just enjoyed being able to sleep in in the mornings again. Its the little things…….

After weighing in and gaining 2 pounds, that was the motivation I needed. Well that and the fact that I had a groupon for Lynne brick’s that was gonna expire soon. Lol. So off to the gym I go.

Let me just say, I FRIGGIN LOVE THAT GYM!!!!! I can’t get enough. I’m not even sulking at the fact that I gained yet another pound somewhere along the line. I’m focused and determined to meet my goal, whatever that is.

Thanks for all the well wishes and support. I appreciate you for taking this journey with me. Smooches for now!!

And so it was….

Filed under: Uncategorized — naturallykish @ 12:50 pm

But what was it really????? I’m not exactly sure but I’m sure there’s a lesson to be learned.

What I am sure of, though, is that when you allow yourself to get drawn in, without a safety net, it makes that inevitable fall hurt that much more.

Why must it hurt though?? Is it because all the things you thought you had under control, you find its not, nor has it ever been in control?? Or maybe because you realize that you’re on the road that leads you to nowhere??? Or perhaps its because you feel that for all you’ve given and taken, its you’re time for ease, for some relief……

I would venture to say all of the above at the same damn time. Lol

See. The way I see it, no matter how you feel, its not up to you. We plan. And GOD plans. Sometimes the stars are aligned and other times, it just aint happening.

I’m searching for that place where, when my Will isn’t done, I can sit back and respect the process and trust that there is One that knows more than me. One that doesn’t desire me to be hurt, or sad or mad even.

Time and again we allow ourselves to get caught up in the novelty of a situation and before we know it, In Too Deep. I implore us to receive the lesson, learn from the experience(s) and grow from it. Move past the hurt feelings and the disappointment to get what message is being conveyed.

I’m standing with open arms to receive my message. I know there’s one…….

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