Naturally Kish

November 11, 2012

Today I Cried

Filed under: Uncategorized — naturallykish @ 1:47 pm

And I mean cried a river!! In front of other people. A hard, ugly cry!

It felt SO GOOD!!!!!

The tears were a sign to me that all that sh!t i thought I had under control, I don’t. I’m still existing.  I have yet to begin living.  Its that same mask that I wear when I tell myself that im fat and fly, or that Idgaf how others view me or what their opinion of me is. 

The difference today though, a sister that does not even really know me basically read me like a book.  She is me. Or she was. And she could pick up from my energy the heaviness that I carry and bury daily. 

The cry was reminiscent of Sheila in Why Did I Get Married when she was in the powder room with her girlfriends and she was sharing her transformation with them.

It was freeing. Like a deep exhale. 

I’m about to embark on the most vulnerable period in my life but i know I will be better once it is complete. 

I thank Allah (God) for the people he has placed in my life.  There is a lesson to be learned or the same mistakes will be made over and over again. I can’t keep on this cycle. 

(SN) Right before my cry I was talking to the BFF and she was cussing me out (with love) via text message about some improper choices I’ve made.  Its interesting how those two events happened simultaneously but are directly connected.

IM LISTENING!! I SUBMIT!!!

Thank you for sharing in my experience. Peace and Love!

5 Comments »

  1. Now im crying what the f**************************ccccccccccccccccckkkkkkkkkkk

    Comment by Reah Idris — November 11, 2012 @ 2:12 pm | Reply

    • Don’t cry. Dry your eyes….. (slick rick VC)

      Comment by naturallykish — November 11, 2012 @ 3:06 pm | Reply

  2. Omg!! #transformation #liberation

    Comment by Mothyna — November 12, 2012 @ 1:52 am | Reply

  3. Aww…it’s amazing how people we don’t know can have such an amazing affect on us. This lady came into my old job and we got on the elevator together never met before and she turned to me and was like baby give it to Jesus and you’ll be okay. She said that he too carried a weight (the cross) far larger then humanly possible and yet he carried it well. I instantly started crying for one I was freaked out and two she read me so well!

    Comment by Yvonne Jackson — December 8, 2012 @ 1:54 am | Reply

    • I always say, nothing is by accident. God places people where He needs them to be. It is our duty to hear and obey his guidance.

      Comment by naturallykish — December 8, 2012 @ 1:57 am | Reply


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