Naturally Kish

July 16, 2013

This isn’t new for me

Filed under: Uncategorized — naturallykish @ 12:44 am

HEY SUGAHS!!!!!! LOL  I know it’s been a while since I’ve posted and I know I keep saying “imma do better”. I will do better, eventually.  But for the here and now let’s get into it.

I’ve been doing a lot of reflecting over the past couple of months.  Reflecting about….LIFE!!!! There have been some significant life changing events that have occurred over the past few months and things have not been the same since.  Not to get too detailed but just know, when you get out of your own way, things start to happen positively.  I deemed 2012 the year of “Sh*t or get off the pot.  Well I bought in 2013 still sitting on that proverbial pot.  And then the light bulb went off – Sugah (talking to myself) you can’t keep doing this to yourself.  You are better than this.

I actually began to believe those statements.  And Lord the blessings began to flow from there.  And they continue to flow.  I’m a firm believer that GOD places people in your life for specific reasons and I know the people that have a lasting spot in my life are there to help me become ME.  And for that I am grateful.

Ok, let’s fast forward.  The title of this post is “This isn’t new for me”.  I was reflecting on my current passion to become community involved and I started thinking “Where in the hell did this come from”? lol  It took me back to 2 experiences I had in the past.  Both of which I am going to share. Neither are the prettiest examples but they bear witness to the spirit of fighter I have re-ignited as of late.

The first experience happened probably in 1993/94. Not exactly sure.  Anyway, I was dating these 2 guys, a neighborhood guy (something I never did) and another guy who lived in the county I think.  Anyway, this neighborhood dude was very insecure and he swore I was messing around on him (which I was, but he didn’t KNOW for sure). He came to my house and disrespected me so bad that the only thing he didn’t do was actually put his hands on me.  I was so embarrassed and hurt. I didn’t know what to do.  Then something said, call the other dude.  Lawd, before I could get comfy on my steps he was in front my door demanding I take him to the first dudes house.  What have I done???? I mean one side of me felt good but the other side was scared as hell.  I didn’t want to be the cause of someone getting hurt, no matter what he said to me.  Long story short, they had words and I never talked to dude number 1 again. 

Fast forward to 2005 when the 2nd incident took place.  My oldest son was a freshman in High School and I received a call from my niecey saying “I just put Quan on the bus. He got banked and knocked out”.  WTH!!!!!!!! All those emotions a parent has when someone messes with their baby came up.  I was at that school Monday morning bright and early.  But I wasn’t alone.  Well low and behold, not only was Bubba and I at the school but the Brothers (FOI) were there too.  I can remember people saying OMG they look like the Black Mafia.  lol  I laugh now thinking about it but I guess seeing a group of men all in black trench coats and me in one as well, totally unplanned, it would appear as if we were making a statement. I’ll just say, Laquan had no more problems at that school.

The reason for me sharing these stories is to show that I have always been a fighter, not a physical knuckle up fighter (even though I’ve done that too), but a fighter nonetheless. A fighter against wrongdoing. This isn’t new for me. 

I know that if you live your life with the spirit of service and helping that in your time of need GOD will send aid your way.  And I also know that I will not be able to sit back and allow the City of Baltimore to chew away at my sons quality of living.  It can no longer happen.  Whatever I have to do personally to show them that I fight for them (fighting that REALLY counts), then it is done. Yes, it takes a village.  But that village must at least be on the same page with the same goal in mind or all is for naught. We must be coming from a place of love.  If there is no love then we’ve already lost.  This is not going to be pretty.  But neither is watching mothers bury their babies.  Just imagine a person addicted to drugs and how they fight with their family when its intervention time.  Eventually, with hard work, we can restore love back into our communities.  It starts with self- love.  I will do my part which first starts with getting my self (mind, body and spirit) ready for the fight.  I invite others to join in the fight.

Thanks for reading and Be Blessed!!!

Hugs and Love


1 Comment »

  1. Brava!!!! You are a fighter…your mama’s a fighter!! You have everything in you to be as God intended! We sometimes have to get out of our own ways and stop blocking our blessings with our own poor sense of self worth!!!! I am so frickin excited that you have decided and are doing JUST THAT!!! YOU ROCK MAMA!! Take that proverbial pot out and BURN IT!!! Teheheheeheheeehehehe Love ya!

    Comment by Reah Idris — July 16, 2013 @ 2:54 am | Reply

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